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Four years ago today, I lost my second baby. I was only 4 months post partum, and 6.5 weeks pregnant when I suffered an ectopic rupture. It was, hands down, the most terrifying moment in all my life. The entire situation took a toll on me, both physically and emotionally. It was just two days be for Elizabeth's first Thanksgiving, and the holiday season. I tried so hard to be the happy and excited new mom that I was before it happened. Some days were easier than others.

My very good friend Jill sent me this Christmas ornament along with a wonderfully written letter that I will cherish always. It's the 2003 Hallmark ornament, Words of Love with little hearts that read: Baby Cakes / Sweetie, Lovers / Friends, Kiss me /Sexy
Je t'adore / Je t'aime, Always / Forever, My princess / My prince,
My Inspiration / Soul Mate

Very few objects in my life mean as much to me as this ornament. I proudly hang the little hearts surrounding the special family ornaments in the front/center of the tree.